The After Effect and the Next Step

The dust settles from Glasgow with a realisation of something else

So I came home from Glasgow feeling accomplished and happy that I had been in public as Tammy. I had a feeling I'd not felt before. But I couldn't put my finger on it.

I went to see my friends in Reading for a day of fun and catching up. My friends had supported me for a while and I felt I could talk to them. A brief pause and I individually told them.... 

Something along the lines of... 'I'm bisexual... And it's ok'. The reaction I got was something to savour, no judgement or awkward silences... Just a I'm proud of you or we are here for you. I knew that was a big step to take and realising it was europhic.

I still had one person I had to tell, a lady who is not only a close friend but a kind of therapist who encourages and helps me feel at ease. I messaged her on my bus to Reading station. She was so happy for me and said to me she will be a support to me and that I can message her anytime. I still do and she is proud of me.

I hadn't told many others at this point, but my mentor in Glasgow knew and that for me was precious. My family didn't know nor my work colleagues. Best kept that way until the moment was right I guess.

Meanwhile I was still developing my style and building on the Glasgow experience I found a level. A 39 year old could be chic and still look great. So I bought a few outfits and went from there.

Post Christmas I decided I would have some time away again... Going solo but my mentor was on the end of the phone... The next part will chronicle this adventure...


Tammy xxx


A few days away in a place where gender acceptance is important opened up my mind more... 

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  1. Unknown20 February 2021 at 10:51

    Very brave moments in this part xxx

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    1. Tamsin Starr Sparkle21 February 2021 at 01:33

      Thank you xxx it took guts but I felt good after wards xxx

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